Out of confused anger...

How could anyone blame themselves when it so easy to just point it all at someone like me? I have never claimed to understand. I've never claimed to know anything about life. I have walked with my head down for 23 years. I don't want to be involved. I have been quietly mastering my own mind, my own spirit. I don't want to know. And when I do, I pick my head up purposefully and inquire. So why do these other wandering beings feel it so powerfully necessary to try and lift my veil and take a deep gaze of false knowing into me, and then shit on everything I stand on?

How am I expected to continue on my own destined path in the pursuit of personal enlightenment when I am told and shown every single day how wretchedly I am perceived by the beings I am bending over backwards to avoid? My mind is mine, so why should anyone else care so much? I am a threat to no one but myself. And if what I behold is so terribly deviant that I must be continuously directed toward the normalcy of society then why doesn't everyone just back off and allow me to silently self destruct?

If I can be content with who I am and what I perceive of myself then why can't someone else? Why is it me who is asked to change? Can they not fathom the idea of changing themselves? Do people even use their gift of thought to consider anything more than self-centered, self-serving, materialistic, masochistic ideas of plastic existence? What about me could be so horrible that you would rather see me dead than see me as I truly am?

Am I even making a point? Do I have anything valid to say?Am I really as I perceive myself to be? Maybe the rest of the human race is working to exterminate minds like mine because I am a version of nature vs. nurture that has resulted as nothing more than a perverse, intensely darkened version of everyone else. That sort of chemistry is what created masters like Bundy. Perhaps because I call Bundy a master, while everyone else calls him a monster.

And do not mistake this for self pity. I do not consider myself a victim of anyone other than myself. I just want to know what gives people the notion that judgement and intolerance is the way to go.